everyone's like you
you believe you know me just because i smile back everytime we meet. or that i touch your arm this way- like you are important. you think i care about your thoughts just because i nod my head and purse my lips as if in deep thought. you imagine i take my promises to be true. you care that i go home too late at night and wonder who i'm with everytime you call. and you email me sometimes when you are drunk and words flow easier and ask if i've listened to the cd you sent. or if i've seen that raw footage of your current movie project. it's still all about you. what you love. what you hate. what you think of me. you think just because we have known each other this long, you really know me. and while you wonder why i still dream about her and while she doesn't think i still hurt from her leaving all these years- i grow tired of wanting you to know me.
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i have a feeling that this is not about a lover but someone older?
you describe it so damn well. whatever happened to him anyway? i've not heard about him. and her, what about her? is she happy?
so many questions, not enough time to care for the answers.
older relationships cj.people from my past or who should be in the past but who keep resurrecting in dreams and pangs of guilt and longing.
she is still in my head, illyria. did you know that while i was packing my things for the new apartment, i found this big box that belonged to her? it contained letters, books, even her cross-stitches. blast from the past pare! 10 year old memories- thick as the dust that made the air heavier to breathe.
two people in one breath. you talk fast.
i found that really very sad. very
i am so sorry to hear this. :(
mussolini, you know us. we can transform the world inone stroke if we try hard enough or wreak havoc the same way.
ruk, sad that i can't seem to move on? yeah. that makes me sad too and exhausted.
ie, letting go is the hardest thing especially when love and its tragedies has turned into an addiction.
I've been struggling with exactly what you said. It's frustrating and futile.
ouch. i do not even know why i said that. haha
:..M..: here's to both of us finding the way out.
alphafemme: ouch. yeah.
apparently, best friends and lovers don't mix. just when you thought they were going along so well ... perhaps a little too well.
And to think how much a touch and a smile can mean, but not always I guess.
Someone said "coming down is the hardest thing." Not if letting go has anything to say about it.
ennui: is there something we should know about? hmmmm
Ô¿Ô : hey you. where've you been?
I didn't go too far, unfortunately. And you're having those dreams now?
yep. these dreams won't go away. i need new memories.
let's drown your sadness with a cup of coffee. on me.
That last few phrases is like "ouch" if some one were saying those words to me.
yey free coffee for sadness! I'LL TAKE YOU ON YOUR OFFER BRO!
hi ferdz! welcome to my whimsical world.
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