in the arms of bliss
giddy like a kid at the sight of cotton candy and balloons, i am dreaming of going back - seeing you again. perhaps swim in your sea of possibilities or wonder at the blueness of your sky and the quiet of your evenings.
your love has been waiting for vagabonds like me. in a little while, we will be flooding your streets with car races and drowning your stars with our uninhibited conversations. and as your moon will be reveling at how much we've grown yet feel the same, we will be playing with the shadows of your dark curbs and dirt roads and dead ends. your crevices hold their breaths for once more, we shall be whispering new secrets and old hopes.
i'm going back to you. my happiness overflows with my sadness. my frustrations collide with my expectations. i am anticipating better things ahead. but first i must see you and remember who i was when i was with you.
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i recall having talked about the good that is sadness because the emotion seems real, the feeling makes us more human. i don't recall having asked if happiness is forgettable. is it?
yes, we did, barry. happiness isn't forgettable. that is, if you refer to it abstractly. but i do know the feeling is forgettable, that's why there's nostalgia. we strive at the feeling in remembering.
ah, i remember now. we concluded that reminiscing is the essence of happiness. this sounds inane at first, but its actually quite profound.
and perhaps only people who know sadness because they've felt it can truly understand what this irony means.
like bismuth.
we concluded that you only feel happy in retrospect, that things seem 'happy' only when they are compared to the boring humdrum that is now.
i like these exchanges. and last saturday, we said that for people who thrive in nostalgia (me)- the memory is much better than reality. while you people need to always do something new to replace what is gone. and writing about the experience is not so much because the need to remember is great but more for marking the moment- to say, it's been done, move on.
"while you people need to always do something new to replace what is gone."
you hurt my feelings. i think.
no grid, it's actually fortunate for you to not dwell so much in the past. you always seem to keep moving forward. there are of course memories or people who are irreplaceable and cannot be forgotten but you find ways to live for the moment- for the future even and not in the past.
ahh, it's so me. i live (and die) for the moment.
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