even flow

i took your cap off. i wanted to see your eyes. and my fingers, heavy with the drowsy, dreamlike caresses of nicotine and beer, ached to touch your face. you reached across the table, took the cap and put it on me.

you said you would change. but you didn't. you are still afraid.

but i've never wanted you to change, i said against the din of the thickening crowd and eddie veder's even flow. and you just looked away as you grabbed hold of my hand.

we were always like that. beer and nicotine and all the misery in between.

and i can only think now- maybe we kissed that night at the foyer of my hotel. maybe not.

oh you beautiful fucked up man!

Even flow, thoughts arrive like butterflies Oh, he dont know, so he chases them away, yeah... Someday yet, hell begin his life again Oh, whispering hands, gently lead, lead him away...him away, him away... Yeah! woo...ah yeah...fuck it up...
- Pearl Jam